I'm not sure what happened.
I'm terrified, teetering on the edge of loss.
For a brief moment, an instant that was an eternity, I was in place I never thought I'd find.
Now I've collided with some coincidence, some bizzare change of red to blue.
I'm reeling, end over end, out of control, but not wanting to stop.

Outside the bounds of sane thought, the spectrum of my thoughts shifts. I turn inward, contemplating, looking to what and who have helped me cope so many times.

I'd do anything. I don't want to lose.