I remember a couple of months ago when I made my last post. I couldn't wait to get the summer overwith.

Now, with the end of the summer screaming toward me, the end of the school term a mere 6 days away, and a fantastic vacation sitting at my door step I've managed to falter.

I've gotten lost.. and the most troubling part is I only realized I was lost today.
I've obviously been roaming for sometime, roaming away from that what I wanted most.
I've taken a job I don't want. Well the thing is... I do want it, but I don't.

I've gotten separated from my dreams. I'm getting separated from the person I want to share those dreams with...

why?
I couldn't look away from the spectre of a job that offers a ridiculous salary. Despite getting paid for what I don't want to do, I chased the money.
I forgot about all I've sacrificed; the reason I moved, the reason I went back to school, the reason I done so much.

I set off on another course without every knowing I had.
I irrationally justified it.

and now... I'm left wondering if its too late...
or at least... too late for now... for nothing really is permenant, and this sure as hell isn't.
thank god_
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not a very good post to break the 2 month silence with.