Now I'm in trouble.

I opened my big mouth... Well rather, free martini's and an overly inflated sense of self-importance opened my mouth. But regardless the result has been the same.

Yesterday, and essentially everyday before that when this issue was first raised, the decision was easy.

Today, I'm caught in the middle of a Tug of war between to of the largest companies on Earth. While it's flattering to have counter offers being thrown around like frisbees, it increases my stresses and complicates things.

I can feel My vision quickly becoming clouded again by the prospect of money. More money here, yet less enjoyable work.

But on the other hand, more enjoyable work, less money, but also no prospect of returning home anytime soon.

Just imagine me, sitting down to a nice meal.
I'm about to take my first bite when I look across the table at my smiling supervisor.

"So, here's the deal. Tell us what you want, and we're going to make it happen."

I didn't taste a single bite of the entire meal.
My entire brain power was suddenly, completely devoted to getting myself out of an embarassingly terrible situation.

"ahhhhh..... ummmmmm..... ahhhhhhh.... ummmmm.... I'm not really sure."

But I am sure of one thing.
I'm a f--king idiot.

I hope you're happy now Blondie :)
You said it would be easier this way... well, please tell me how.